Archive for the 'Positivity Quest' Category

Positivity Again: Decoding the Future

Friday, May 2nd, 2014

technology1The future will be spoken in images.  Words will be used in small quantities, as a laser pointer to highlight a meaning or to elicit an emotion- mostly laughter. We are already on our way to this new language if you are a teenager or hang around teenagers. Facebook is so ten minutes ago and Instagram and Snap Chat are the mechanisms by which they communicate. Capturing the moment and sharing it is the new art form.  And it is less a broadcast mechanism like Facebook and Twitter, which opens your content to everyone and more a select tribe.  Also, snaps disappear in seconds; no long term record of what has passed…  The kids are all about this moment and the only way into their attention is through a personal invitation.

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Positivity Again: Celebrating the Beginning

Monday, April 21st, 2014

“So many fail because they don’t get started – they don’t go.  They don’t overcome inertia.  They don’t begin.”  -W. Clement Stone


hand2Starting things is hard. It explains why so many great ideas go unrealized.  To begin, you have to become comfortable with the discomfort of the unknown, to embrace the truth that even the best laid plans often don’t hold up to the uncertainty and chaos that accompanies the process of making a start.  Relationships are especially fragile in the space of beginning and often the people you believe would be beside you at every step fall away and people you may not have even known come forward to guide you at moments when everything seems lost. Likewise, the process of identifying roles and assigning responsibilities takes both patience and flexibility. The beginning offers a clean slate on learning how to relate, and the leadership that emerges from striking a delicate balance of direction and freedom is both inspired and inspiring.

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Positivity Again: Second Life

Thursday, April 17th, 2014

deadseaI have been feeling the resurrection myth coming to life lately.  Since my father’s passing, my relationship to him has completely transformed. There is a kindness and gentleness that has not been there in decades.  I discovered a box of old photos in his home when I was cleaning it out that he had never shared with me from his childhood. It is easy to get lost in the black and white images of him as a baby being washed by his mother, my grandma who I loved dearly, and of his baby sister who died as a toddler. My own sons have such a strong resemblance to him that I never saw before and I am strikingly so much my grandmother.

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Positivity Again: Celebrating 30 Years

Friday, April 11th, 2014

wendyfrancThis Monday is the 30th anniversary of my marriage to the guy I fell for when I was 19 years old.   I wept when I came across the first published piece I ever wrote among my father’s photos and memorabilia when I was cleaning out his home after his death.   This was a reader’s write column for the sun magazine, for which I won a year’s subscription.   It was 1988, the year our first child was born and I was 26  when I wrote:   “He laughs when he tells me, ‘so here you are married to the man of your dreams.’ He’s right, But I often forget that. The memory gets lost beneath the piles of dirty laundry, dirty dishes and frantic schedules. New baby and old family issues dominate the focus.  But every now and then, seeing his penmanship or looking at him reading across the room, behind his round metal rimmed glasses, I feel the young girl of nineteen who fell in love with him.  Grown up now, I fall in love all over again…But this love is a deeper one, born of all the efforts of conflicts resolved, communication achieved, joy and pain shared.  It’s a love that fills all of me and all of my life.”

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Positivity Again: Even If You Can’t Feel It

Friday, April 4th, 2014

hand2Lately, I am having to do a lot of practice with going through the motions of my Positivity work.  Meditation, usually a deep solace, is hard to stay focused. I drift into thoughts and concerns for half my time and then awaken to what I have missed. Likewise, with my exercise routines, my clogged head feels like it is dead weight on a body that is weak. My emotions and thoughts pull me back over and over to what is wrong around me or worse still within me.

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Positivity Again: The Power of Ritual

Monday, March 24th, 2014

nightsky2When All That’s Left Is Love

by Rabbi Allen S. Maller
When I die
If you need to weep
Cry for someone
Walking the street beside you.
You can love me most by letting
Hands touch hands, and Souls touch souls.
You can love me most by
Sharing your Simchas (goodness) and
Multiplying your Mitzvot (acts of kindness).
You can love me most by
Letting me live in your eyes
And not on your mind.
And when you say Kaddish for me
Remember what our
Torah teaches,
Love doesn’t die, People do.
So when all that’s left of me is love
Give me away.

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Positivity Again: Real Rules For Love

Tuesday, March 18th, 2014

bwcouple2There are a couple of immutable rules to living a love-filled life, which demand respect and compliance. Although they are simple, they are hard to recognize, as our misunderstanding of them is often built into our identities through early emotional wounds. It is easy to become self righteous about what we believe about love and easier still to never understand that the action of love is the courage to work at it.

These rules become clear often at the moment of death, when we are faced with the loss of one who loved us.

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Positivity Again: Love and Death

Friday, March 14th, 2014

beachcoupleImmortality comes through love. This is what I just recently learned at the passing of my own father’s life.  It had been close to 40 years since I felt love towards him. His wounded heart only knew one language- anger, and over the years it hardened into a bitterness that made it unsafe to love him. But now that he is gone, I am struck often, and forcefully, with tears of missing him, the father that I loved, and the wasted tragic years in between when I was unable to feel or express that love towards him.

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Positivity Again: My Elder Sister

Monday, March 3rd, 2014

lesbiansilhouetteI was born a middle child between an elder sister and younger brother.  We were never close, and now that my father has died, I am able to see not only my relationship with my father more clearly, but also with my siblings, as well. It was a dear friend who shared with me a poem called “Elder Sister,” which described all the ways that she, as the first one,  had to break through the barriers and bear the collateral damages of my parents abuses.  She was never interested in me or even liked me, but as this poem taught me,  her love was a like a shield that kept me from getting the worst of what happened in our family.  Maybe that is why she resented me so;  I could be playful, joyful, even at times, completely oblivious to the ways she guarded me from the hardships I didn’t even know were happening.

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Positivity Again: Remembering When I Had a Daddy

Friday, February 28th, 2014

wendygrandpaIt has been a long time since I recalled being a little girl, in love with her dad; but since my father has passed away, the block that prevented me from recalling what it felt like to be loved by him, to trust him completely, has fallen away.  Mostly it makes me feel really sad about all the things that kept me from feeling that way about him again.  Even with all of the efforts I made in the last 8 years to rebuild a connection, what occurs to me now is that the places we can’t forgive and let go are our own making.  My father was not an easy man to love… but ultimately the love I withheld from him, I actually withheld from myself.

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